Monday, January 27, 2020

Light


Like a flickering candle on a windy day,
Life has an atypical way of mimicking that notion.
With one gentle exhale that light can easily be decimated.
Worlds within worlds will crumble and pain will emit without any consolation.
A domino effect will initiate and there will be no end to it.
But one day the fog will clear, and the darkness will wane.
And that light that sparked within you will find that peace again.
Just give it time, lots of time. 

My heart goes out to the Bryant family, and the other passengers that lost their
lives so unexpectedly. You only get one lifetime on this planet. Make sure it's worth it.

Marc Anthony - Vivir Mi Vida


Only song that came to mind after yesterday's unfortunate tragedy.
Mamba out. RIP.

Monday, January 13, 2020

Happy Birthday Love



It's our anniversary and it's also his birthday. Happy birthday baby, we love you so much. Thank you for being you and for loving us the way you do. I appreciate you so much.

Year 2

Frankly, we met out of pure luck a.k.a. it was meant to be. There's hundred of crossfit gyms in the Houston area, yet, we belonged to the same one.  I'm also very grateful for BBQ sauce & Kraft! My husband used to work for Kraft and at the time they would give him a lot of food samples that he could give out to his friends and family. And yes, Kraft produces other items besides cheese. Mind blown I know! He posted a picture of several BBQ sauces on his Instagram, I exclaimed I needed that hamburger BBQ sauce in my life and a few minutes later he messaged me privately. He asked me what time and/or day I was going to be at the gym so he could give me a few samples. We exchanged numbers, and our conversation kept going and going.

On our first date, after our crossfit workout, we went to go grab brunch (who the heck grabs brunch on their first date?) That Saturday morning, we sat across from one another, not really knowing what would come out of it; we shared an omelet and the rest, well. . . it’s our history. We also had two more first dates that same day. We met up for a drink with two other friends and then we went to the movies. It's quite funny because neither one of us was nervous. We were very comfortable with one another. He later confessed that to me. Those were the best three first dates I've ever had. I’ve also never loved another man the way that I love him and I’ve never looked at another man the way that I look at him. Not just in a physical sense but in an intimate, soulful way.

Here is what I've learned from my 2nd year of marriage and my dear husband:

1. He is so patient with me. I can have a really bad day and he just takes it, no questions asked. When I'm back to my normal self, I always apologize and explain to him why I was being so crappy. He says he can always tell when I'm having a bad day by the way I answer him, guess my tone gives it away.

2. When it comes to parenting and discipline, I'm a lot more strict and he's a lot more lenient. It's tough trying to discipline children that you didn't give birth to, they sometimes don't take your words as easy as your own child. But I treat them all the same. There's no favoritism in our home. You never know when you can hurt a child's feelings by simply asking them to pick up after themselves. It's really tough being a step-mother. But I try really hard. And he does too.

3. He's still really good at playing outside with the kids. They never give him a break. He could be exhausted from driving 3 1/2 hours, sometimes more per day, but he never complaints. He just does it. I admire him so much for that. He's so good at it.

4. We can't agree on making coffee. I'm so particular about it. I measure it down to the t and he just eye balls it. Sigh. He'll drink my coffee but I won't drink his. We can't work around this, it is what it is.

5. I'm still a lot more clean than he is. So one thing that I've learned from this last year of marriage is. . . to ask for help! There might be certain things that you do or he does, for example: he's in charge of taking out the trash and I'm in charge of moping the house. But sometimes I need more help. Before, I would just get angry about it but how would he know how I'm feeling or why I'm feeling this way, if I don't tell him. Like he says, he's not a mind-reader. So, just let them know you need a little help in the cleaning department and trust me, they'll help!

6. I keep waiting for this, "wait until the honeymoon phase is over" but it's been over and I still love him so much. I don't get it.

7. One way that I remind myself of the love I have for him, especially on my bad days, is by listening to songs that remind me of him. I created a playlist on Spotify. So when I'm angry for no reason or for reasons that don't matter, I go for a run and I listen to my "him" playlist.

8. He's still a better driver than I am.

9. We still make time for each other, away from the kids. We have a cheese and wine tasting this week that I'm very excited about. I love going on dates with my husband.

10. He still grabs my butt, randomly. It may sound silly but he still treats me the same way he treated me six years ago. He still looks at me the same way as well. It's like his love for me doesn't change with age. It's kinda sweet y'all.

11. I'm still the luckiest woman alive. He has taught me so much over the years, we both have grown in so many ways. I love the way he lights up any room with his laugh and his smile.

And that's year two!






Post Malone - Die For Me ft. Future, Halsey



On a Post Malone run. . .

Post Malone - Hollywood's Bleeding

Thursday, January 2, 2020

A Decade Ago

A decade ago. . .

I was 22 years old
I had a four year old
I was a vegetarian
I was broke & still living with my parents
I had one cat, Luna
I was in college (part time)
I was obsessed with someone who never loved me
I obviously didn't love or respect myself either
I was single
I was lost in my own ways
I had a sick father at home
I had a strong mother
I had a sister & two brothers
I had my health
I had great friends (a handful)
I had God on my side

The start of a new decade. . .

I'm 32 years old
I have a fourteen year old & two step children
I'm no longer a vegetarian (that lasted 5 years)
I'm no longer broke nor living with my parents
I have four cats (Millie, OJ, Salem, Whiskers)
I finished college (yay)
I'm obsessed over someone who loves me more than I love myself
He has taught me self-respect & the meaning of true love
I'm married
I have found myself in some ways, still searching though
My father is no longer with us
My mother is even stronger
I have my sister & two brothers
Along the way God blessed me w/a nephew, two nieces, & a sister in law
I still have my health (not sure about my sanity)
Those great friends are still around & I made some new ones (love you new friends)
I still have God on my side!

May I continue to grow and learn from my mistakes, I hope this upcoming decade is better than the previous one. You win some, you lose some. Cheers to 2020!