Wednesday, December 4, 2019

When You Got A Good Thing - Lady Antebellum

The World Is Mine

I vaguely wonder about the what if's, or the perhaps, but from time to time they do cross my mind. Do you ever think about that? It's not as if you wished your life was any different, or any better, you just wonder. . . that's all. I sometimes wonder if he thinks the same way I do. Do I ever cross your mind? Does a TV show or a particular fast food place remind you of me, of us?

Life has a peculiar way of working itself out. At some point in time, another human being was your entire world. Let's face it, this world is made up of infinite tiny worlds and some worlds self-destruct faster than others. Some may last a few months, while others will last a few years. And if faith is on your side, some worlds will last a lifetime.

But what keeps these worlds going round and round? I don't have the answer to that. All I know is that once that world ends, you peel off that layer, gain or lose your sanity and you keep going. And that's the beauty of it all, you just have to keep going.

Thursday, November 14, 2019

Beyoncé - Disappear

Rainy Thoughts

Last night I looked at him and told him, “You’re the best thing that's ever happened to me.” We sporadically joke around and wished we would've met sooner and had all three kids together, but God had other plans. God sometimes hands you a full plate and you must balance it the best you can. I’m grateful for Him.

I heard a sermon this week that made me question a few things in my life. It asked to look at the last ten years of your life and question the following: Are you proud of who you are? Are you proud of your sins, those you keep to yourself in secrecy and those you expose to others? And in my mind and heart I can say I’m a better person now, not a good one but a better one. And I will continue to work on myself: to be a better wife, mom, and Christian.

You see, you can work on yourself behind closed doors; the world doesn't have to be a part of that. Find that good place and hold on to it for as long as you can. There will be some days where you're not the best version of yourself and that's okay. If you're here, alive, you can make it right, you can continue to evolve and grow as a person. It’s all about growth and acceptance. Happy Thursday!

Dido - Thank You

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

Thursday, November 7, 2019

When I'm Alone

When I'm alone in my car
I like to crack the windows
Just a few inches down
Rain or shine
Hot or cold
I like to feel the air on my face
I like the feeling of it
It makes me feel alive
I pick the playlist that matches my mood
And I blast the music loud
Really loud
I sing my lungs out
I try to match their tune, their vocals
And I don't care who's watching
I make wave motions with my hands
And I move my shoulders
Left to right
I get a little carried away
When I'm alone in my car

Jazmine Sullivan - Let It Burn