Even when I sleep he finds a way to creep back in to my mind. I can't seem to get him out of my dreams. Unconsciously his a part of me even if it's something I put behind, it's a battle between two teams. My heart and my mind are in conflict constantly and at times my taste of lust interrupts. We've both made our mistakes but if this was a competition you would be a head of the game. Since when does a relationship have to be a job? It's not suppose to be something you have to work hard for every day of your life. It should be a part of you, like your heart. Something that doesn't have to be made up this instant like your mind. So guide me, and let him be. Let his pretty wings soar high. Let some one else love him and give him what I couldn't. Peace.