Friday, September 18, 2009

His Absence

I was not allowed to think of him. That was something I tried to be very strict about. Of course I slipped; I was only human. But I was getting better, and so the pain was something I could avoid for days at a time now. The tradeoff was the never-ending numbness. Between pain and nothing, I'd chosen nothing.

Before him, my life was like a  moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars-points of light and reason. . . And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everytinhng went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't seee the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.

Have a blessed weekend.

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