Wednesday, April 7, 2010

It is

You can't always have it all. As much as I would want him around as a friend, the good friends we use to be back in 2006, I can't have it my way. I've never loved another human being this way before and I'm not sure how long it I'll be before I love another man again. After yesterdays conversation with him, I've decided to let it go for good. There was always this thread that made me hold on to him, that kept that hope alive. But that bond is broken and I have to let him go. Even if we've been apart for this past year, I always found a way to keep him around. But I have to draw a line and I have to respect him. I want to be able to call him my friend again in the future. A real friend. With alot of love and appreciation towards you, I'll be seeing you old friend.

5 comments:

TC. said...

sometimes it is best to just... let em go.
only we know what's best for us. but even then we only see what we want.

PQT said...

I agree Tere. It's just hard to accept that he won't be part of my life anymore. We took a chance at love, risked our friendship, and in the end it crushed us. We both lost our ways. And now we can't even be friends. But I pray to God that whom ever his with, that she makes him happy. I love him that much Tere, that I walked away from it all, just to see him happy.

TC. said...

wow. yea, realizing that it wont work out and walking away is brave. bc you're not being selfish. it's admitting failure and sometimes its hard for us to say when we've failed. but you can't say that you didn't give it a try. some day you'll find some one to make you happy too.

PQT said...

I hope so. I want a Tere/Anthony relationship one day. Both of you are great. And even greater together. But yes, I'm not a selfish person at all. Mejor sola que mal acompaƱada :)

TC. said...

LOL, i know that's right. I can do better by my damn self hunny. but yea, i thank God for sending me my equal. i just never settled, i don't believe in that. and i met him when i least expected. i didn't want to slow down but he never gave up and i'm glad now. we don't have a perfect relationship, but we make it work bc we're crazy abt each other. :)