Episodic Insomnia
January 31, 2012
"Don't stress that 'cause it's not in your bloodstream, your whole being comes from greatness."
A Tribe Called Quest
Have you ever laid in your bed with your eyes wide open?
Even with the lights off, you can make out a few shadows here and there; and there
either dancing gracefully or mocking you. I don’t do it very often. I usually
go to bed when I’m tremendously tired. I’m so tired that it doesn’t even give
me time to wonder. Why else would I just lay there for? Who in there right mind
takes pleasure of staring into nothing while raging divinely inside? It’s a nuisance!
Last night I had a lot on my mind. I even tried what Botch
recommended. But instead of smoking a cigarette, I jumped in the shower and I
let the hot water cloud my vision with all the steam it produced. All the while
I listened to A Tribe Called Quest, “Stressed Out”. And hearing there lyrics
and Faiths’ vocals really made me feel better. A hot, steamy shower is also the
resolution to a long day. But it wasn’t enough to ease my mind.
I laid there for two hours. Every envision and thought that
rammed through my head was followed by another thought. Endlessly. My mind was
jumping hurdle after hurdle. I had exhausted myself to a point of annoyance. So
I sat up and I prayed. And continued to pray. Eventually I placed my head on
the pillow but I didn’t stop. I continued praying. I suppose then and there God
decided to give my mind a break. And I dozed off and welcomed this morning.
This day.
My solution was there all along, where it’s been all these
years. Peace.
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