Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Just Because

There are few things that trouble me. And the troubling part isn’t even worth mentioning. I can’t and I won’t bring myself down in that way. Over the years, I’ve learned to take criticism, absorb it frankly and then just as quickly dispose it. Vamoosh son of a bitch. I will not let inconsequential people own me. I am a person just like you. And nothing you do makes you better than me. Do you ever sit there and really think about it? What makes you think I’m not aware of it? What makes you think I haven’t acknowledged it? Reality check. I am fully aware of my actions. And it amuses me a little to think you or anyone else knows even a glimpse about me. As Kelis once said, “You don’t have to love me, you don’t even have to like me but you will respect me.” And it all comes down to respect. Over the years I’ve dealt with a few unpleasant encounters. But as of lately. And when I mean lately, I mean three years ago, my life has not been filled with any drama. At all. I suppose I let go of what I had to let go. Certain people. Certain faces. Certain phases. And those whom I’ve kept around don’t bring that type of melodramatic scenery. Nobody in my circle attracts drama. No drama magnets around here. On the contrary, we avoid it. We don’t go out to places where everyone is at. We don’t care for that. We have been doing our own things for years now. I know my crew is heartedly good. Every single one of them has a heart of a champion. And I adore them for that. I rather have four single quarters rather than having one hundred pennies. I read that somewhere and it just stuck. All I really care about is my family and my good friends. And that has been entirely my focus. I'm a lover. And I have so much love to give. I'm a nice person. And that's all I know how to be. I will not put up with any buffoonery's. I've lost so much along the way, that losing it all has made me gain so much in return. All I have is this blog. And my words. And I don't have to lie to myself. I stopped lying to myself long ago. Accept it and move forward as well. Peace.