lately, my days seem a little bit brighter
the dark cloud that hovered over me is gone

yet i still feel it all
i feel the sun's warmth and winters cold all at once

i took him a bite size christmas tree, with a few ornaments, the other day 

i sat next to his grave and gazed at the dark sky 

but i didn't let the darkness in

not this time at least
i sat there in silence
not thinking at all
no thoughts whatsoever
and it frightened me in a way

i don't ever want to let go

but i do not need to find closure within

like he says, all in good time