Monday, December 18, 2017

His 55th Birthday


Hey there old man,

Wherever you are. . . just know we're thinking of you today.

Happy 55th birthday!

I love you.

Love,
Pata

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Growth

"For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. The shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. To someone  who doesn't understand growth, it would look like complete destruction."

- Cynthia Occelli

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Yeah, Me Too

"The brokenhearted are indeed the bravest among us — they dared to love and they dared to forgive." 

— Brene Brown

To all the women who can relate to this, just know that we stand together, to heal and to forgive. You are not defined by what happened to you. You are strong and resilient. 

PQ

Monday, October 16, 2017

Motivational Monday

strength
streNG(k)TH/
noun
  1. 1.
    the quality or state of being strong, in particular.
  2. 2.
    a good or beneficial quality or attribute of a person or thing.


It's in there, I promise. Do not let them win. 


Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Another Year Without Him

3 Years

I cried all the way home
I fueled my sadness with music
Just for a few minutes
I let go of all the agony
And it felt damn good
I go days and weeks without thinking of you
I temporarily forget in a way
And then the misery
Of not having you around settles back in
And  I'm back to square one
But feeling this way
Keeps every memory of you alive
It makes it more real
It happened
You were here
Your love was real
It keeps me grounded
I love you and I miss you
Dad


Love,
Pata



Mariah Carey - Without You


 "You always smile, but in your eyes your sorrow shows. . ."

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Self Love

"That's the beautiful thing about self love — you wear it like a dress and it becomes more and more exquisite with time."

— April Green

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

Wild Flower

And I heard her say:

"Darling,
remember your roots.
You are like a wild flower.
You must grow. . .

but you must also let go."

-April Green

LION BABE - Treat Me Like Fire



So, so good.

Friday, September 8, 2017

A Few Months To Go

Just a few more months and I'll be Mrs. Torres! 

I can't wait!

I love you D.R.T.!

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Hurricane Harvey

It's been pretty hectic around here but the dust is finally starting to settle down. It's hard driving passed all these houses and seeing all their belongings out in the street. Most of it is furniture, mattresses, and crumbled drywall. But just imagine losing almost everything you've worked for over night. That's literally what happened here, many Houstonian's went to bed that Saturday night just to find their world crumbling down the following morning.

I am grateful that my family and friends were not drastically affected by hurricane Harvey. Sure my brother lost his car but he still has a home. My son's father had a few inches of water inside his house, most of the drywall had to be removed and a few things were tossed out but he's grateful it wasn't more than that. In a very fucked up way, that's the only way you can positively look at something so catastrophic. . . you take what you have left and you tell yourself that it could've been worst.

I am thankful for first responders, like my sister, who worked 12 hour shifts, patrolling the streets and trying to keep the peace within the city. I am grateful for our City for quickly putting together shelters for those who have lost everything. For all the Houstonian's who have donated not just physical items or money but their time to shelters and evacuee centers, thank you, thank you so much.

Stay strong Houston!

Time - Who Needs It Anyway

If you're feeling discouraged, just remember that you are very much on time.

You're not one second late or one minute early. 

You are exactly where you are meant to be.

Give the world a smile and make the best out of it. 


Friday, August 4, 2017

A Million Times

"if i lived a million lives,
i would have felt a million
feelings and i still
would have fallen 
a million times
for you."

-r.m. drake

Flowers

"you're a flower
and you don't
need to drown
the moment
the rain starts 
falling down."

-r.m. drake


Friday, July 7, 2017

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Your Mess Is Mine

"You're the reason that I feel so strong,
the reason that I'm hanging on.

You know you gave me all the time
or did I give enough of mine?

This mess was yours, now your mess is mine. . ."

Vance Joy - Mess is Mine


Sunday, June 18, 2017

Father's Day

I love you and I miss you every single day.

Happy Father's Day.


Thursday, June 1, 2017

Losin Control - Story of My Life


"She fell for him & hasn't gotten up since. . ."


Tuesday, May 16, 2017

You Decide

"Love makes no mistakes and people could either be a blessing or a lesson. You decide."

-R.M. Drake

Friday, April 28, 2017

O.G.B at 15 Months


Who This? New Phone. . .

Photo Cred: J. Blickenstaff

Temples & Views

A hidden gem in this overcrowded city. Filled with chanting and scented oils. A place filled with serenity and peace. Marble and limestone walls. Architectural details at its finest. We walked out of there wishing we knew more and more about their religion and practice. It made us realize how naive we are about other cultures. I get to venture and absorb some knowledge, in this case in regards to Hinduism, with my lifetime partner. Ps. You aren't allowed to wear shorts or shoes while walking through the temple. So here he is. . . I think he looks quite handsome in his mundu. Love you baby.



Sunday, April 16, 2017

Easter 2017

Happy Easter! 

Be Graceful. Be Thankful.





Friday, April 14, 2017

Born Again

“Every morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most.”

— Gautama Buddha

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Die With You by Beyonce

Last year around October was the first time I heard a snip of this song. It was a minute long video uploaded to YouTube by one of her fans. Beyonce usually plays this song, along with a slideshow of intimate photos and videos of her family, during intermission at her shows. This song gave me some serious aesthetic chills!!

Even before we got engaged, I've been jotting down songs that make me feel a certain way about Him. Die With You was third on my list, for the obvious reason that it wasn't a full song. Well, two days ago, on her wedding anniversary (Beyonce) released the full song!! And now it has easily moved up to first place on my list. 

The first time I heard the entire song was on my way to class and I couldn't help it—a fistful of tears streamed down my face. If my heart could sing a song about the way I feel about Him, the way I see Him. . . it would be this song. 

"I don't have a reason to cry, and I have every reason to smile.
And I don't have a reason to lie, when you're already reading my mind.
And I don't have a reason to be, if I can't be with you.

And I don't need air in my lungs, if I can't sing your song.
No I don't need hands, if I don't get to keep you warm.
And I don't really need myself, if I don't need you.

'Cause darling I wake up just to sleep with you,
I open my eyes so I can see with you,
and I live so I can die with you.

And I don't really need these fingers, if I don't get to touch your spine.
No I don't need these legs, if I ain't walking by your side.
And I don't really need to be, if I can't be with you."





Friday, March 24, 2017

The Night Of. . .

That Tuesday evening, we had plans to celebrate our third-year anniversary. We decided on the restaurant and made plans to meet at his apartment after my class ended. I have class on Tuesday evenings, therefore setting an exact time was a little tedious. My professor usually dismisses us fifteen minutes early but on this particular evening, she decided to keep us a little later than usual. I sent him a text message letting him know I was still in class and that it was better if we just met at the restaurant. He was a little hesitant but agreed.

When I arrived at the restaurant he was already seated at a table. I walked up to him, kissed him on the lips and sat down next to him. He had already ordered us drinks and I could tell by his body language that he was kinda nervous. He was tapping his right foot uncontrollably and his speech was a little rushed. (I later on found out why, of course.) He asked me about class and then joked around about the restaurant, “I take you to the best places, only the best for my girl.” Truth be told, I got on Yelp and found the restaurant. His only job was to show up. Haha

We ate dinner, talked some more and stared at each other the way we normally do. We asked for the check and that was that. He told me he had to stop by the gas station to fill up (typical stuff he does on our hang out night) and we agreed to meet me at his place. I got to his apartment and I immediately took off my heals, I usually put on my pajamas as soon as I get there but I didn’t do so this time. I was in the restroom when he got there.

I walked out of the rest room and he tells me, “Babe, one of the balcony rails is loose.”

Concerned and a little upset, mostly because our children hang off those rails almost every week,
I walked outside and started tugging on all the rails and nothing. . . they were all perfectly fine. I finally glanced down towards the pool and there it was, in gigantic letters, “MARRY ME?”


I gasped and when I turned around he was on one knee, holding up a little black box with the most beautiful ring my eyes have ever seen.

I uttered out loud, “What. . . what are you doing?”

“You are amazing Perla and I love you so much. . ." & before he could finish I ran to him and hugged him while he was still kneeling.

"Yes, babe, yes." I replied. Even though he didn't finish asking me.

I sat on his knee and he held me until I was done crying. I then sat on the couch and stared at my ring and then stared at him. (This went on for a good ten minutes.) He later on told me he had this whole speech recited, so meaningful that it made his eyes twinkle a little when he thought about it. But I didn't let him get to it! & now I have to wait till our wedding day to hear it.

He also told me how difficult it was to time everything. He didn’t know what time I was getting out of class, it didn’t help that I unexpectedly asked him to meet me at the restaurant opposed to his place. He had to hide the rocks with pool chairs prior to meeting me at the restaurant and then uncover them after we had dinner so I could see them. But he said it worked out perfectly. And I couldn't agree more, the night of my proposal was everything I've never dreamed of. 

To Him: I have never known love like this, nor have I loved another human being in this way. And I honestly don’t believe one lifetime together will ever be enough. I love you with all my heart D.R.T.

Love,
Your Wife To Be

Monday, March 13, 2017

Someone Like You

"and i was born the
moment i fell in
love with the world,
because i knew
somewhere, someone
like you existed in it."

-r.m.drake

Him


I love you. #mcm

Wednesday, March 8, 2017

HIWD

Happy International Women's Day!

"Strong women. . . 
may we know them, 
may we be them, 
may we surround ourselves by them."

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Saturday, January 28, 2017

Birthday Fun



Pictures by J.Blickenstaff


Happy Birthday D.A.M.

Dear Damis,

"I hold you now to believe that
maybe one day, when I am old
you will hold me the same way
I held you in my arms.

you give me peace.
you give me life.
you give me all the things
I never knew I had.

I love you 12 times,
to the moon and back."

- r.m. drake

Happy Birthday sweet boy.
I'm proud to call you mine.

Thursday, January 19, 2017

Free

he has me, like a fly trapped
on a web and I'm not fighting it.
I'm all his, numb in love and left
undone but I'm okay with that.

sometimes, with one look,
he makes me feel free.

- r.m. drake

Friday, January 13, 2017

Happy 34th Birthday Sweet Man


Happy birthday my love! 
Your love drives me crazy and sets me free at the same time. 
I just can't get enough of you.
 I love you.

PQ

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

1st Birthday of the Year


💕

H A P P Y 

B  I R T H D A Y

B O T C H!

T E 

A M O !


Sunday, January 1, 2017

2017 Has Arrived

This year will be truly different. 

I am excited for what's to come.  

Thank you 2016. Hello 2017.

Happy New Year!