Wednesday, April 22, 2009

She Listened to Her Heart Above All Other Voices...She Is Who She Has Become

I usually begin writing to release the anxiety that is running through my body. It takes over all five senses and it doesn't go anywhere until I decide to set it free. Once it's out of my mechanism, I can start to focus on whatever it is I was doing. I had this incident and im sure many of you can relate to it. You send a text message with a life threathning question (exagerating) and the receiver takes a trillion seconds to reply. While I waited for this respond, all sorts of moonstruck ideas started to dance in my head. I just wanted to know a simple yes or no answer. As the seconds continued to go by, I became more and more delirious. Gratefully that individual text back with the answer I was expecting all along. Thank goodness for that or I would of lost it completely and you would of been stuck reading more non sense. I evaluate myself about three times a year and decide to make a few changes. Lately, as in the last two years, I've focused on school and school only. I'm jubillant to say it has paid off. After the summer courses I take, I will only have five classes remaining and I will have my very own Associates in Science. I'm not sure why im majoring in science but with out a question I enjoy my BIO classes. I detest history! I've heard it all before, history has to be teached and I forget why it has to be teached but the Texas School Board of Edu. inforces history and government. For the last few years I've cut down going out with my friends. Many might think its because of a certain someone and I won't deny it, half of the time it was. But i'm happy to say that i'm content with staying home with my son or simply jus catching up on a book. Preferably going out here and there when its a close friends birthday celebration. I always look forward to that!

Oh and movies, oh how I love to watch movies. I realized I like to watch the same movie over and over again. A certain person pointed that out about me. She concluded that I like to know what happens in life. I don't like unexpected things to occur in my actual life, so things like movies I can control. So it reflects on a simple task such as watching films. I agreed! I hate surprises. I always want to know what is going to happen before it does. I'm very organized with everything. I know what classes i'll be taking in 2010 and what my expectations are. Ricardo gets very annoyed about this. We can't watch a movie that he has previously seen because I always ask him tons of questions "What's going to happen Rick?", "Is he going to die?" etc. I just realized that is rather annoying. Oh well, I am who I am. Love me or hate me, this pearl will keep shining. Peace.

I currently started to read The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. She is a marvelous writer and poet. She had a troubled life and it shows in her writing. She could turn a simple paper cut in to the most demented poem ever written. For the summer, which is only the month of May for me, I will be reading books that ive been looking forward too for a period of time. These are just a few of them:
- The Diving Bell and The Butterfly by Jean-Dominique Bauby
-Prayers for Sale by Sandra Dallas
-Look Again by Lisa Scottline
-Belong to Me by Marisade Los Santos
-The 13th Tale by Diane Setterkeld
-Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man by Steve Harvey

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